I cannot sing the old songs or dream those dreams again.

So, I'm writing this post on my phone because I have anxiety about using my computer right now because I'm so behind on my homework. The past three days have been emotionally straining but I'm finally back up from my down cycle. It just feels good to feel good again. When I experience times like that I begin to realize how I have no real connection to the outside world. There isn't one person out there who tries to get to my level and just be there. I only hear feedback telling me I need to change this or do that. They don't realize the intensity of the things I'm personally dealing with and it only makes it harder for me. I know someday that one person will come into my life and really sit down to want to understand and get to know me and the crazy life that has been put upon me. Someday there will be that person who drops everything they're doing just to come lay in bed with me and be there for me because I'm upset. Someday I'll have that best friend. I know this to be true and I believe in this because if I don't put my faith into it then it may not ever come true. Staying strong with my head held high.goodnight loveys!
xoxo; melissa von