I will never date a guy who smokes pot and sits around playing video games.
I think every girl is attracted to the "bad boys" and I think eventually we all end up dating one. This is important. You learn a lot about yourself and what you want out of life. We all have our 'turn-ons' and 'turn-offs' and my turn offs have to be guys who sit around smoking pot and playing video games. I've been there, done that, got the t-shirt. That guy is not my guy. Cheers to you if that's your thing, be yourself, but it's just not the type of people I want to surround myself with.
I'm almost 22 years old. I'm not looking for some silly high school, young love, type of relationship. In my experience (aka all three of my serious relationships) I don't like that in someone. It's just so careless and kind of lazy to be honest. Call me what you will, but I'm not into guys who do drugs and waste away. That's just where I stand.
I think it's so so so important that girls go through bad relationships like that. You realize what you're worth and who you want to surround yourself with. Girls in their 20's tend to date guys who they think would make a great father, even if they don't realize it. If you're dating someone who you wouldn't want to be the father of your child, well then you're just wasting your time.
I think guys who have self confidence and determination are attractive. I think guys who want to live an honest life and be happy and laugh are so attractive. Guys who smoke pot and play video games don't really know what they want out of life, and if they do then they're not really living up to the plans they set out in their heads. They are just kids, they're boys, not men. If you're someone who does drugs and plays video games, that's fine, it's your life, you just won't be a part of my life.
We all have our vices, but it's time to grow up.
Anyone who knows me knows that I've never been in love before. I've felt love for boyfriends, but never been head over heels, can't imagine my life without you kind of love. I can tell you what I do love. I love pictures I have with ex-boyfriends. I think it's because I look happy, because I was. It's not a creepy "I miss you so much omg" type of thing. I just love how damn happy I look.
I miss that. I mean if you took away the bullshit and difficult situations I was so happy. I think there's something amazing in being so close with someone like that. That one person you text first when something crazy happens, or to say good morning and goodnight. The one person who you confide in with your secrets and have trust that they'll keep it hidden within them.
I do miss being in a relationship. The boyfriend above I decided to "attempt" to keep his identity unknown. It's not that we're on bad terms or anything. We're just nothing. We're not friends, we're not enemies, we've just become strangers. I think that's the saddest thing in a relationship. When your best friend, the person you're so close to all of a sudden becomes a person you know nothing about.
I will FOREVER care about each one of my serious boyfriends. I hate holding grudges and feeling hate towards someone who you use to care about. I try to be mature and take it as it is and understand that it just didn't work. There's only one serious boyfriend who I have harsh feelings towards. I hate it but he decided to betray our post relationship friendship and he decided to be immature. He's into drugs again and hanging around the wrong crowd the last time I heard. I do wish him well even though I don't very much care for him.
I think that's the craziest thing about relationships; emotions. Emotions are powerful things. If you use them in the wrong situations then it can destroy lives. But if you use them in the perfect situations then it can change your life for the better. If put in the wrong hands in the wrong situations, it's like a ticking time bomb. You need know whens the right time to give your heart away. I've chosen horrible times, obviously. I know better now. It will happen when it happens. Being patient with fate is getting old, but I'll play this game.
reason 1 - no fucks
Every girl has a crazy gene, most of us hide it and pretend that we're all sane. We're not. Amanda Bynes let's her crazy out and without shame. She has a pair of MASSIVE lady balls. Cheers, Amanda!
Reason 2 - twitter rants
Not enough drama in your life? I don't either. So just follow Amanda Bynes on twitter. She tweets around the clock, stirring up drama and constantly calling celebs out and guess what? DUN DUN DUN, they're all ugly, according to Amanda Bynes. In my book, that's the best insult ever. Not only is it rarely used, it's also ineffective unless your name is Amanda Bynes. Work it girl.
Reason 3 - her fashion sense
Love her or hate her, you have to admit, this bitch knows how to dress. Even when she's wearing her synthetic disheveled blonde wig, she's always dressed to impress. Work it gurrrrrrrrrl!
I know she has made a fashion line in the past, but there's an amazing rumor going around that she's creating a new fashion line. Amanda, please. No...but really please do.
Reason 4 - she's good with words... in her own amanda way
Can I just start off by saying, that photographer is a douche. The paps treat her like a wild animal and they spend their entire life trying to get into other's personal space. I don't condone it. I love her come backs. She's a very un-filtered girl, and I think more people should be that way. She stands up for herself. I gotta be honest, not many girls do. In her defense he was treating her with disrespect.
P.S. her body guard for this day is NOT what I would expect. Then again, we're talking about Amanda Bynes, no one ever knows what to expect.
reason 5 - her micro-dermal PIERCINGs on her cheeks
This has to be one of my favorite things she has ever done. In hollywood, as an actress (even though she's retired) piercings and tattoos are basically taboo. Getting one or both of those things may just end your entire career. She is one of the first celebrities (considering the limelight she is in) to do something so dramatic. I'm pretty sure everyone was shocked when they first saw or heard about her "new look". I love her new look. I love how she knows what she wants and says what she wants and goes for it. Most of us can't say the same.
Really though guys, Amanda Bynes has set a pretty high bar. She's not going anywhere for a very long time. Everyone may think she's crazy and what not, but you can't judge someone based off of what you read. In order to have a real judgement you have to meet that person and get to know them.
Amanda Bynes is fucking awesome. End. Of. Story.
This is what happens when I'm left home alone for two hours.
"So la di da di, we like to party, dancing with 'Miley'"
This song is going to be forever stuck in my head & I know she pokes towards saying "dancing with Molly" aka the drug aka just say what you mean, girl!
& she sings about getting "so turned up" by a line in a bathroom aka cocaine. Everyone is freaking out about this. Whatever guys, seriously. We all have had a specific time in our lives where we've pushed the limits a little too far. People just have this fear of becoming irrelevant which I think has a lot to do with the Miley Cyrus song & Video chaos that has consumed the world wide web. Whenever someone stands out, other people get all panic-y and freak out about blah blah blah because they have boring lives and love to judge others but get crushed when others judge them. Just do you and let everyone else do them. It's really not the end of the world. So Miley has a fake grill and is air humping on the bed, tell me what you were like in college and I ensure you that the roles are basically equal. We all do things when we're young to find ourselves.
Don't judge someone just because they sin differently than you.
Let the bitch have fun!
So I decided to watch the second season of Laguna Beach: The Real Orange County today. No shame. It fills me up with the lack of drama that I have in my life so it's win win.
Anyway, just watching the dynamic drama and crazy relationship problems made me think of high school and boyfriends and all my past drama. I was thinking about the relationship problems and break-ups that I've been through.
I feel like break-ups are a blessing in disguise. At the time it's heart wrenching and the worst thing you can imagine, but deep in the back of your mind you're taking one big sigh. You may not feel it, and if you do, you ignore it. When it comes time to ween yourself off of that person, you really find out a lot about yourself.
That one person who just made you feel like you're not special anymore actually is the one person that allows you to grow and mature, if you allow it.
I know personally, which I don't care what kind of girl you are, you've been this at one point in your life, I was a CRAZY girl when one of my boyfriends decided to pack his things up and leave me. When you're a girl, you learn how to hold those emotions until you're alone, every girl is fucking crazy and don't let one tell you different. Well, this particular night I decided to let the crazy out. As I was being crazy, in the back of my head I was telling myself "you look like a complete idiot right now. You are crazy, look at his face, he's totally terrified. What are you doing?" I couldn't help it haha. I was crying and repeating myself over and over like a sad drunk high school girl. I think I even sat on his suitcase and was basically power pointing him reasons to stay. Which that point is pretty much moot because I was being a crazy girl.
Long story short, he left. I don't blame him haha. Still to this day, like all men typically do, he tries to call me and text me and tells me that "I'm the one that got away, wahh wahhh wahhh" that his mom tells him that he fucked up by leaving me. No. He didn't. I was awful. That night at least. He was pretty awful. Then again, there are particular phases of breaking up when it comes to girls.
Phase One: Asking yourself over and over what you did wrong.
Phase Two: Re-caping every great moment of your relationship, making slideshows of pictures and watching it while crying and eating a gallon of ice cream and or cake.
Phase Three: Watching romantic movies and missing him. And still crying.
Phase Four: Watching romantic movies and getting pissed off.
Phase Five: Pure rage and thinking of how awful the guy treated you and re-caping all the horrible fights and drama that went on in the period of your relationship.
Phase Six: Forever holding a grudge against him for unknown reasons.
Let me tell you gentleman, nothing is worse than a scorned woman. Women act off emotions, not reason. We're crazy and we love every second of it.
Everything you do, you pay for. So if you're going to kiss me, you'd best be prepared to bleed.
The bad news is, your choices and intentions, some people and places, those nights spent awake and all you've done, can lead you to the bottom of the pit. The good news is, this wouldn't be the first time someone's crawled, tooth and nail, out of hell.
you are the best parts of all the songs I love.
Just like you mistook lust for love, you have mistaken being alone with loneliness. So I'm fine.
Thank you for asking.
you may continue to call it a breakup. I will continue to call it an exorcism.
For I may fall and I may fail but I will stand again each time and you will find no satisfaction. Because you cannot kill me here.
Know someone as much as you can. Hold onto the moments that define them. Then when their body leaves, they won't.
The bad news is, people are crueler, meaner and more evil than you've ever imagined. The good news is, people are kinder, gentler and more loving than you've ever dreamed.
It sounds pretty but I disagree. I believe there are moments in life when you have to dance like everyone's watching.
I'd leave the memory of you at the station, if it didn't already know it's way home.
You wake up with a list of all the people you'd rather be. But you're already on everyone else's list.
Because we all need to believe in movies, sometimes.
if the only reason you help is so that you can tell people that you help, I don't need your help.
If you don't think I'm important, you're a no one, not a someone. Because everyone is important to someone.
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I Wrote This For You
july 6th, 2013 - 9:14pm
more to come!