Check tracks 8 and 9 and call me back.
I was re-reading some of my previous posts and I whine a lot. Sorry about that. This website is basically my best friend. I go to it to rant about the happenings of my daily life and when something is bothering me I can't help but to blog it out. In real person I don't whine or talk about all the things I hate. I'm the opposite. It's so damn hard to find that one person who you can talk to about everything while you cuddle in bed at night in a cold room. That's all I want. Truth: I hate sex. I know that's like super personal and way out there but it's the truth. I just don't like it. Everybody talks about it like a drug, hell some people are addicted to it and do crazy things just to get it. Not me. I could go the rest of my life without having sex and not even blink an eye about it. Of course, when I confide this with people I get the general responses - you just haven't had good sex yet - you're obviously not doing it right - you're probably just too insecure-. No. It's none of those things. I have my personal reasons for why I don't like it.
What I'm trying to get at is that I just want a guy who will drop everything just to drive to my house when I'm upset. I want a guy who will cuddle with me until I fall asleep and forget why I was ever upset. I want a guy who will love Stanley as much as I do (my old english sheepdog). So far this person only exists in my dreams. I had that guy but he's not here anymore. I want it again. Everyone takes their best friends or their boy/girlfriends for granite. You should be feeling lucky that you have someone there to make the pain go away. Not everyone is lucky enough to have that. Someone that texts you and just makes you smile so big. Someone to say goodnight to. I took it for granite with him and never realized how much he changed me until he was gone. I didn't know how much he cared and how much I needed him and now I just want it back.
Love everyone in your life to the fullest. You're lucky you get to say good morning to them and laugh with them and talk about drama, sadness, and successes. Hold them close and don't ever let that feeling go. One day you won't have that to get you by. Remember all the good things and let all the bad things disappear from your mind.