My status in this city is "not relevant" and honestly I prefer it that way. I spent too much time in and out of the drama of this city. I don't care if my name doesn't even run across anyone's minds anymore. I don't mean this in a morbid way at all, what I mean to say is that I'm happy with where I'm at and who I choose to disclose my personal life to.
A couple of years ago, everyone knew my business. They knew what party I went to, what I did at that party, and who I'm ironically dating. Everyone knew who I was close to and who I didn't care for and it all meshed together in the tabloids that were the people here. I was miserable. I fucked up a lot and I'd be 100% positive that someone would have something to say about it. They always did.
Now, I do what I want in privacy. No one needs to know who I am close with, whom I choose to date or talk to. It's amazing. Having no facebook allows me to breathe and think for myself. I don't worry about what people will say and i'll be damned if I allow myself back in the limelight. I don't want to get people's expectations up of who they think I am or what they think I do. I want a blank slate with everyone.
Yes, I do still use instagram and I sometimes go overboard with it, but that's because it's my only ties to the outside world. I know nobody reads my blogs, I'm not that stupid. But I make them anyway because these blogs are for me