Right now in my life my main focus is on school and my mental health. I don't really have room for a relationship. I just couldn't deal with that drama. Don't worry, I get my drama fix from reality TV. Sleeping alone isn't my favorite thing. I miss laying in bed with a boyfriend and just talking until I drift off to sleep. Sometimes in life you have to give up things. Right now for me that is having a boyfriend.
Health and school are my #1 priorities. I can't let myself slip into a relationship and begin to drift away from my life goals right now. I never finish anything I start, but this time I want to. Online school is COMPLETELY different than going to school on campus. You have to learn self discipline and you have to keep to a schedule or you'll fall behind. I tried the whole relationship thing last summer while I was doing school and it showed. My grades were suffering because I was trying to be there for my boyfriend and give him the time he wanted and I would just blow off certain assignments.
In life you don't always get what you want. I want a relationship but I know I need to finish school. I've never gotten anything I wanted out of life besides an amazing family. I wasn't born with a silver spoon and I love that. My family have taught me that you have to work hard for what you want. That you may have to give up something you really want in order to get something you need. Some families don't have this distilled in them. I'm fortunate enough to have two very strong parents who have been through hell and back to provide for their family.
In the future I know I will find my soul mate. As for right now, I'm going to make sure I'm ready for that day.